Uncertain

What exactly to make of our current situation. As you know, Vivi is out of the Labyrinth, but she seems...not exactly paranoid, but warier. And we're both...really tired.

We haven't had any new Indoctrinated activity. We've seen Two Face a couple of times, but she's always given us this look of absolute horror and then run off. Frank is unaccounted for and Adam is with his father and sister now.

Speaking of Adam, got a phone call from him this morning.

C: Hello?

A: Hello. It's, um, Adam. For now.

C: Hi- what do you mean, "for now"?

A: Razor's still there. I can hear him. He might...take control. He hasn't so far, but I worry that he might.

C: ...So you have some kind of split personality thing going on?

A: No, I don't...Razor was me as a proxy. I think His grip on me was strong because I was convinced that if it kept Mum away, it must be a great and important duty and maybe if I helped her she could come back sooner...and he's not quite gone. I still get...violent...impulses...

C: ...You're pretty naive, aren't you? No offence.

A: Not so much any more, I hope...it's got me into nothing but trouble. And...it's hard to be naive when I can remember being Razor. I remember kicking Genevieve and he was enjoying it, for gods sake, he thought it was all good fun, all just a game...and I've got blood on my hands now. I can't go back to being the way I was before with that on my conscience.

C: So what are you going to do?

A: I'm going to University at the start of the year.

C: What do you want to do?

A: Psychology. I want to help people, and I need some way to make up for what I've done. And what Mum has done and will do. I'll...I'll help you, if you need it, but I probably can't tell you anything you don't already know. I've read some of the blogs since I got home. Yours included.

C: Do you think you might start up your own?

A: Probably not. I think I need to try and...get away from all this. Try and live normally. Also, can I ask you to do something for me?

C: Depends what it is, but probably yes.

A: If you see Mum, can you tell her we all miss her?

*he hangs up here*

Well. Looks like we're going to have to keep an eye on Adam. It's true he was a completely different person as a proxy and he threw up twice as much as Kaylee and Mike put together, so it's possible that Razor is still hanging around in the back of his mind. He'll contact us or his family will if he regresses. We're the only Fighters in Auckland as far as we know, so we have to look after the people we can find.

I've rigged up a few more traps for people who try and get into the house. We've already secured the window sills- perhaps not enough to deal with a Revenant and their healing factor, but perhaps slow them down and I look forward to the next time someone tries to come in the back door without turning the outside light on first. If they do, WE WILL KNOW.

My dad is an electrician. I am very grateful for the times I listened to him walk about work at the dinner table.

And if anyone wonders, my valentines day was fantastic.

--Chess