Monday, February 28, 2011


She managed to get a message through to us. She's okay, she's okay she's okay she's okay

her voice saying "I'm alright" just...god, if you're up there I owe you one.

I have to figure out how to get her out. Towards the end of the audio message she got someone (Two Face?) to leave on Tenebria's tumblr, she sounded...afraid.

"the walls are closing in

try to believe"

That phrase has cropped up a lot lately. In Vivi's message, in the accompanying coded message and another message from Two Face. Either that or TRYING TO BELIEVE.

On top of that, I went out for a walk to clear my head shortly after making my last post and found the following graffiti::




010101000110100001100101011100100110010100100111011100110010000001100001001000000110110001101001011001110110100001110100001000000110000101110100001000000111010001101000011001010010000001100101011011100110010000100000011000010111010000100000011101000110100001100101001000000110010001100001011100100110101101101110011001010111001101110011, 2/66/3-9/33-9/2/555/55-8/666/9/2/777/3/7777-444/8-44/2/66/3-444/66044/2/66/3.

For those who don't want to translate it, They read TRYING TO BELIEVE, you are not alone (one each in binary and Two-Face code) and...the one that's a mixture of binary and the Two-Face code is this blog's tagline.

I don't know who you are, but thanks. Decoding those gave me a reason to stop freaking out...and it's good to know there's someone closer to home who's not either oblivious to what's going on or a proxy.

I need some more mace, some more barbed wire, some eucalyptus oil, and some serious audacity.

Also, I need to know where they are.

If anyone knows anything or can help, please let me know now.

I'm coming for you, Vivi. I'm trying to believe.



  1. She goes on about an anime, gurra something, I think.

    Why would she mention this? Could it be a hint as to where she is?

    Also: Should you find her *be* wary.

    Get a digital camcorder, or something.

    Tenebria has admitted she can fuck with people's perceptions, appearing to vanish, appear, or even change what seems to be real.

    I dunno if she can do the same to a camcorder, but its the only thing I can think of to try and ensure what you're seeing is what you're seeing. For all you know, it might be Tenebria looking just like her.

  2. I know this is going to sound stupid and corny but if you keeping seeing the phrase "trying to believe" it might be something more than just the obvious.

    And be careful out there. I was sort of chatting with Tenebria earlier, and she used to be like this. I know she's batshit nuts and it probably doesn't matter what she used to be like, but you might be able to use that. And if you see her, tell her I tried.


  3. @Jedi: Gurren Lagann. And it's not her location, it's a quote one of the characters, Kamina, is fond of- "Believe in me that believes in you." She's trying to encourage me in her own weird way.

    @Alora: That it could mean more than it looks like is possible, maybe even probable...I'll think about it.

    I saw your conversation with her. I'm guessing she fought and lost and it's made her kinda crazy...the way she talks about being numb is worrying though. Since in my opinion, to feel is to be human, to live, therefore numbness is a loss of humanity. Pain is better than emptiness, because it means you're still alive.

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  5. Grr...

    Chester, in that entire voice message. Was there *anything* that didn't sound right that she said?

    any familiar noises in the background?
    Anything that might give *SOME* idea as to where she is?

    Also, when you get her, I suggest you do so while packing.

    Its sad about what happened to Tenebria, but she's shown herself to be far too dangerous. She's a conduit on the wrong side. As much as I hate to be the one to say 'we can't help her', that kind of power on the wrong side is something we can't let happen.

    Like you said, they just appeared out of nowhere. That is because she can fuck with your perceptions. For all my theories I was so very wrong...

    Again, the only thing I can think of to try and fight it off is to use a digital camcorder.

    that or a tin foil hat.

  6. The way she said "the walls are closing in...try to believe" was worrying. She sounded...panicky, almost. She sounded more...nervous than normal throughout the entire thing. I think she's not as calm as she seems to be. She's extremely claustrophobic, Vivi is, so if the walls are indeed "closing in" that's not a good sign...I think she's just as terrified as I am, if not more.

    You're right about Tenebria...I pity her, really. If that's the way she feels, no wonder she always looks so apathetic. I thought she might just be tired or sick but there's something very wrong about her eyes.


  7. Is it wrong of me to wish we could do something to help her? I mean, I'm pissed as hell at her, but I'm sick of people dying. Even if they're not on our side. I'm sick of all the death. It sucks.

    Or maybe being able to help Daniel has made me think I can help everyone. I dunno. >.<

    But unfortunately, I think JediZero is right. There's probably nothing we can do for her now.


  8. I think...we could help her, but she doesn't want to be helped. There's nothing we can do. If I catch her or any of her little friends around here, I'll have words with them. I'm pissed at them for knocking me out and taking Vivi so I'd quite like to let them know that, but also I need to find out where she is.

    Again, if ANYONE reading knows ANYTHING...please tell me here or email me at If you're a proxy I'll leave you alone as long as you do the same for me, I just want Vivi back.


  9. Stupid Blogspot, having to restart over because of their stupid e-mail system.

    Anyways,Chess I'll be in town for a bit so if you get any leads or anything let me know and maybe I could help.


  10. I'll let you know if I find out anything.


  11. Hopefully there will be two more conduits joining her ranks by tomorrow. That is if all goes well with my plan.

  12. BELIEVE Chester! Believe is one of the strongest things you can have besides love, hope, and hatred you have ALL of those right now. Go get 'em. Believe that we believe in you.

  13. Hey, (X), for some reason you guys seem to not like trying to harass me.

    Some reason why?

    Maybe its because you know that I won't hesitate to kick your asses.

  14. Their attempt at getting Tenebria to choose which Conduit would die backfired drastically. It was quite amusing to watch...