Friday, March 4, 2011

The truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth

about what happened yesterday. On my end. Chester doesn't remember most of what happened.

I woke up at about 2pm in a blank white cell and flipped the fuck out. I screamed, banged on the walls, panicked etc for about an hour and then realised that flipping my shit wasn't gonna do me any good. Then I think I cried for about half an hour. I said that audio post that showed up on Tenebria's tumblr around that point. Towards the end, the walls just started to rush in on me and I panicked and blacked out.

When I woke up I realised that although they'd taken most of the stuff out of my jacket pockets, they hadn't taken the marker pen. So I drew all over the walls. TRY TO BELIEVE; TRYING TO BELIEVE; BELIEVING; YOU ARE NOT ALONE; There's a light at the end of the darkness and we walk towards it hand in hand; some god-awful poetry, some song lyrics I remembered, a couple of short comic strips, quotes I'd heard or read, anything to keep me distracted. I sang until my throat hurt. I sang everything I could remember. Songs from my iPod, songs I'd heard on the radio, a couple of hymns I remembered from going to church with my grandma before she passed away (I never had a faith, but I enjoyed spending the time with her) and more besides.

I think it annoyed her, because she kept asking me to stop. She cut off my hearing, made the walls close in, made me see things and I never stopped. Not ever.

I think I slept. I dreamed about colours and lights and cut out paper stars and Chester and my friends and my family and the world as it should be.

I woke up to find Tenebria sitting in a chair, just watching me with her head tilted slightly to one side. She looks even more scruffy up close- clean, yes, but her hair's tousled, like she hasn't brushed it since forever, and she's dangerously skinny and it's a subtle distinction between her normal look of utter boredom, but she seems tired.

"You smile in your sleep. Pleasant dreams?"

"For once, yes."

"Lucky you. I haven't dreamt in a long time. Not that I can remember."

"Really?"

"Yes. I miss it sometimes. I have heard some people find answers dreaming."

"I'm sorry. That must be...pretty bad."

She rounded on me and then everything went numb, I couldn't feel a thing, I'm not going to describe it again. It's in the previous entry to this one. But..it felt like a loss of identity, of self. You don't realise how tactile human beings are until you lose all sensation.

I don't think she intended to make it last for as long as she did, but it took 24 hours for feeling to start to return.

I lay there, feeling sensation slowly returning, when I heard yelling and thumps and a couple of gunshots and then silence. Footsteps. Voices, just out of range of my hearing and then another gunshot.

...I was so scared that one of those gunshots might have been Chester. Trying to save me, and dying in the process.

Then there was a door. Right after the third gunshot, there was a door. I stared at it for a while, checked if it was locked (it was) and if it was indeed a door and not just part of the wall that looked like one. (as far as I would see it was)

I stared at it for what felt like years, then I think I went to sleep until the door burst open and there was Chester, covered in mud and soot and brandishing various improvised weapons. He pointed the can of mace at me and said "What did I say to you on the night of February 4th, that you've subsequently repeated back to me when Tenebria first posted in order to slap some sense into me?"

I panicked for a split second before I realised he was trying to check if it was really me, rather than Tenebria or one of her little friends masquerading as me using her abilities.

"I'm not perfect, but I'll do my damn best for you."

(We need to change our question now...)

Then we got the fuck out of there. I think Chester carried me at least part of the way. We got the the car and I looked at the warehouse I'd been in and Tenebria was standing in the doorway, grabbing onto the frame for support, one leg held slightly off the ground, staring after us.

Then we got home and passed out. We've had a little bit of proxy activity since then but nothing aggressive or confrontational. Tenebria showed up a couple of times but she didn't come beyond the fence. There's been some interesting things going on at her tumblr. Bits of backstory, her real name, blah blah blah...you people seem pretty intent on getting a Heel Face Turn out of her. Glad to see I'm not the only one who thinks anyone can be redeemed. We're here for her and if she wants to open up to us she's welcome to.

I need to sleep some more...

--Vivi

28 comments:

  1. :( *internet hug*

    Sensory deprivation. Srsly. Why. It's like they just keep trying to freak us all out worse using you two. Which isn't cool. On a plus note, I think you did a lot better than I would have.

    Also, your new question should be something completely random, like...

    -How is a raven like a writing desk?
    -What is your name? What is your quest? What is the flight pattern of a European swallow?

    Or something similar.

    ~Alora

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  2. Oh gods, Monty Python and Alice/Poe. Vivi, sorry I wasn't here earlier to give you an internet hug, so... *INTERNET GLOMP*

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  3. Vivi I'm sorry you had to go through that. I'm sure they won't make the mistake of taking you next time. They thought Chester was weak and they paid for it.

    @Alora: I think the reason they're putting Chester and Vivi through the ringer is because they are so far away from the rest of the Slenderblogsphere. That and they are the only ones that they(and we know) of that are dealing with this in New Zealand. I believe they may be trying to discourage us by ATTEMPING to show how powerless we are to help them. So far though their efforts have been in vain. These two are perfectly capable of taking care of eachother just fine.

    Rest up you two and be careful.

    ~SJ

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  4. @Alora: The question is always something only we both would know. To know the current two questions, any slenderminion would have to been stalking us for just under five years. Very closely at that.

    @Shelby: *internet glomp'd* Someday, Shelby, I'll give you a real-life hug, okay?

    @Selina: You're probably right. The best thing about working as a couple is that we back each other up.

    --Vivi

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  5. At least you two are staying safe. Good luck. Glad you're okay. I mean that...TOTALLY sincerely. Like super duper much. *Joce

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  6. ...if you were being sarcastic I'd be a tiny bit worried.

    --Vivi

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  7. Vivi, Stella is thinking about coming to see you about the cure.

    I'm not sure if its sincere, or a trap, or whatever.

    The only reason she's hesitating right now is that Chester would be super double plus pissed at her showing up.

    If you could go to her Tumblr and tell her that as long as she doesn't pull any funny stuff, it'd be alright, I think it would help convince her to come and at least give it a chance.

    P.S. Chester, did the digital camera ever help out on seeing through her perception tricks?

    ~
    JZ

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  8. We've found a way around that that will allow her to get the cure without having to swallow her pride, which could take a while.

    The screen blacked out every time I pointed it at something Tenebria had messed with but the problem was she had altered the way the entire building looked so the screen went black the entire time.

    --Chess

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  9. Dammit!
    I feel so goddamn useless.

    *sigh*
    Back to trying to play Therapist with Stella.

    *glasses*

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  10. I am intensely amused by the fact that you think I have Chester wrapped around my little finger. I do, but he's got a similar hold over me.

    Next step: Developing couple telepathy. n_n

    --Vivi

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  11. I dunno, considering how much Chester freaked out that you vanished...
    ~
    JZ

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  12. He's not as good as appearing to be calm as I am. I absolutely flipped my shit when Chester got nabbed about a month ago. Literally shut myself in one room of the house because I didn't feel safe if I couldn't see into every nook and cranny, which is easier in a smaller space.

    --Vivi

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  13. She took it.

    She drank it.


    Now we just wait.

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  14. That she's had no reaction is...a little worrying. We'll have to wait and see.

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  15. Well, she's not responded in a while...

    Maybe it took a bit to kick in and she's doubled over atm.

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  16. If her latest post is any indication, no symptoms.

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  17. ...again, been a while since she responded.

    Dammit, this is nerve wracking.

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  18. I am fine. There was an internet outage at Vivi and Chester's, and I have been quietly leeching off their internet.

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  19. I saw wat u were doin thar. Don't use up our data allowance.

    ...And she just left, clutching her head and stumbling. Something's happening.

    --Vivi

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  20. She feels. SHE FEELS SOMETHING.

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  21. Go get her, she says she's dizzy and has to go lie down.

    Don't let her leave, she might get caught by the others and hurt.

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  22. VICTORY

    unfortunately she's now passed out on the pavement. We're gonna go rescue her before people notice.

    --Vivi

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  23. Okay, we've got her now. She's coma'd out...

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  24. I'd suggest starting to cook something.

    If my suspicions are true, once she's out of it, if she's cured, you're going to have a ravenous girl on your hands.

    Not ravenous as in 'Oh boy, I sure am hungry.'
    Ravenous as in 'OHGOD I HOPE I CAN HOLD OFF FROM EATING ONE OF MY LIMBS TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT'

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  25. I'm not going to start cooking anything until she starts showing signs of consciousness. She's completely out of it right now. Unconscious. I wouldn't want to cook a meal she can't eat because she's still unconscious.

    --Vivi

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  26. on her tumblr, she can 'get away with eating a meal once every three or four days'.

    that's why she's so thin.

    And why I think she's going to be so hungry.

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  27. Hot damn, that's not often. I'm about her size (although I think she has a lighter, skinnier build than I do) and I need three meals a day otherwise I pretty much die of hunger.

    Update on her state coming right up.

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