Okay okay I lied. I'm not okay. I want to go out and find the Slender Man and wring his skinny neck because I have had enough of this shit. I have had it up to fucking here.
Fuck...I'm scaring myself now. I...I'm getting angry all the time. I get enraged more and more easily and when i do I get more violent (punching walls and things) and I'm not usually like this and it's scary. What if I get angry with one of my friends? Or Stella? Or Vivi? god if I hurt her I couldn't live with myself. I can tell when I get angry, even though it's never, ever at her, that she's afraid of me.
Fuck fuck fuck fuck I don't know what to do. I...
Vivi, I'm sorry.
Breathe in through your nose, out through your mouth.
ReplyDeleteConcentrate on this. Concentrate on this for at least a minute.
Focus on emptying your mind, and relax.
If you know how to meditate, do that.
Just relax, please.
Don't do anything stupid.
It's a bit late to tell him not to do anything stupid.
ReplyDelete--Vivi
Oh goddammit.
ReplyDeletego kick his ass Vivi.
Stella? can you help mess with him just enough to keep him from running off?
Dear god Vivi what did he do?
ReplyDeleteI have to protect her no matter how much it hurts both of us.
ReplyDeleteVivi, I love you. And I'm sorry.
--Chess
Chester...
ReplyDeleteHe's right, goddamnit, when he gets angry I'm afraid of him because he's not...
Augh...
--Vivi
Chester, the fuck are you doing?
ReplyDeleteYou're not going to do what Stella did, is it?
Please, for the love of god.
I swear, if you do that, I'll go down there and kick your ass myself! Don't think I won't!
What Stella did? You mean make a deal with...no. No no no no...
ReplyDeleteI...I'm leaving.
--Chess
Chester.
ReplyDeleteDoes this mean we're over?
--Vivi
CHESTER.
ReplyDeleteTHIS IS WHAT THEY WANT! WHAT THEY'VE WANTED FOR THE LONGEST FUCKING TIME!
You do this, you are letting them WIN.
Goddammit, I WILL GO DOWN THERE AND KICK YOUR ASS!
I'll probably have to go without food for a month, but fucking hell, I will come down and slap the ever loving stupid out of you!
FUCK IT.
ReplyDeleteThis...this is what they've wanted all along...
Fuck fuck fuck fuck, I even said it myself.
Divide and conquer. Fuck.
I can't believe the most I was worried about last night was my emotions messing with my thinking...ARGH.
They have to be planning something...
He didn't take his phone or the iPod. He's got no internet access. He probably stopped in at an internet cafe or something.
ReplyDeleteChester...
Oh for fucks sake!
ReplyDeleteGoddammit, I'm useless!
You did all you could considering the situation, Rob, and that's all we can ask for.
ReplyDeleteYou're not useless. I'm the useless one here- I was THERE and I couldn't stop him slipping out the back door and leaving. And now I can't get Vivi to stop crying, or eat, or even get up off the patch of floor she's collapsed on. Or respond to any kind of outside stimuli whatsoever.
I believe the phrase is FML.
Stella, right now I think you're going to have to convince Vivi to get up and both of you to go look for him.
ReplyDeleteDo you know of any place that Proxies frequent in the area? Anyplace that Chester might end up going to?
Way it sounded, he's planning on going out in a blaze of glory, trying to take as many as he can with him.
That or just getting a hold of one to interrogate.
...I really shouldn't read comments aloud. Vivi heard the "blaze of glory" bit and now she's crying harder.
ReplyDeleteOh. Oh. Rob, I think you may possibly be a genius. She's actually got up off the floor, even if it is just to bang her first against the wall and go "No, No, No, No" over and over...which is somehow scarier than the whole screaming "NOOOOOOOOO" thing that they do in movies.
He may have gone to the old base where we kept Vivi...we'll go check it out now. We'll stay in touch.
--Stella
Don't go unarmed.
ReplyDeleteFor the love of god, keep something on hand to defend yourselves with.
Both of you, please be careful.
In the car. Thank god I have a license.
ReplyDeleteI have Chester's barbed-wire baseball bat thing, a can of mace, and a gun, just in case my ability fails. And if Vivi snaps out of it, I know she's a pretty good fighter. We'll be okay.
--Stella
Both of you better be okay!
ReplyDeleteI swear if you die, I'll make sure you live to regret it!
When you find Chester, tell him I'm going to kick his ass if I ever meet him in person.
ReplyDeleteStay safe, please, both of you.
~Alora
We're here.
ReplyDeleteWe'll be okay. I promise you, we'll make it out. Besides, that would leave that RETARD Chester by himself and he'd probably go and get himself killed.
We're going in, checking for Chester, and then getting the fuck out of there.
--Stella
afk.
ReplyDeleteI promise we'll make it out.
You both better be...
ReplyDeleteI haven't even been able to tell you something yet Stella.
...Dear god that was pointless. All they could tell us was that Chester has burst in, asked if they were all the proxies who lived in the base (he got an affirmative), gave them all a quizzical look and then left. I nearly got into a car accident with some crazy woman, exhausted myself giving a dozen proxies hallucinations at the same time, then got very little useful information out of it.
ReplyDeleteVivi's no longer a crying heap (she "helped" with the subduing via whacking Ellipsis, one of the Revenants, over the head with an Encyclopedia.) but she's not much better. She's sitting on the couch zoning out.
...You have to tell me something? If it's that you and Slendy are eloping, does that make you my stepdad?
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ReplyDeleteIts not important right now. Right now you need to help take care of Vivi.
ReplyDeleteThere isn't much I can do other than be around. I've tried my best to illicit a response out of her but the most I can get out of her is a nod or a shake of the head and she gets hysterical if I mention Chester.
ReplyDelete...And if it's not super urgent, you can tell me later, okay?
ReplyDeleteGet her home, turn on her iPod and look for a playlist named for 'sad' or for calming down.
ReplyDeleteRight now I think we're just going to pray that Chester somehow or another manages to snap out of this.
Short of attempting to divine where he went, I can't think of anyplace to go for a hint.
Unless Kirsten or Kaylee is able to offer any help.
Understood.
ReplyDeleteThank you, by the way Stella. I wish I could help more than simply being a line of text online.
All her playlists have odd names.
ReplyDelete"Freezing", "Burning", "Rising", "Falling", "Dreaming", "Waking", things like that. The only one that doesn't follow the "ing" format is "Resolve". What do I do?
I finally figured out the password to the account. Yay.
ReplyDeleteKristen can't help us and I have no idea who Kaylee is.
...I guess it's our fault for being so remote. (headdesk) There are no other bloggers in New Zealand.
Play Resolve.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry I took so long in responding, I had to do a few things.
ReplyDeleteI would, but she's gone to sleep. Fuck, I hope she doesn't have a nightmare because I have no idea what Chester does to calm her down and fuck those nightmares are my fault, anyway...
ReplyDelete--Stella
I'm going to try and catch some sleep. Night, everyone.
ReplyDelete--Stel
Play it softly.
ReplyDeleteMusic can get into dreams and might help her regardless should she have a nightmare.
You're lucky you caught me just before I left. Will do.
ReplyDeleteG'night.
--Stella
Goodnight
ReplyDeleteOkay, so no sign of Chester and Vivi is no longer catatonic. But she keeps talking to herself. Sometimes to me.
ReplyDelete"I was afraid of him, I was afraid of him, I should have been a little braver, a little braver, maybe he wouldn't have left...he promised he wouldn't leave, Stella. I can't cope with this alone, so I'm lucky I have you, but even when Chester was running he'd call me once every couple of days, just to say he was alright and now I don't know I don't know I don't know...."
...yeah. And to top it all off He That Is won't let us leave the house. I was going outside to get the newspaper and he was standing on the doorstep so I tried the back door and he was there too. All the ground floor windows, as well, and I tried some of the second storey windows but he'd just be standing directly underneath so not an option.
--Stella
Alright, Stella, there's a new defense symbol that seems to keep him away for a longer period of time. It seems to piss him off though, so only use it if you really need to.
ReplyDeleteIts basically the 'jesus fish', with an X and a sphere, making it look like an eye focused on something.
Apparently it lasts up to 24+ hours, or so the experiments on this blog say.
http://searchandreveal.blogspot.com/2011/03/final-ichthus-operator-sign-results.html#comments
May or may not help, but at the very least its something new to try.
Does Vivi know of anyplace where Chester might stay?
Has she asked his parents where he might have gone?
Is there anything you might have overlooked? Anything that could potentially give us a clue as to where he is?
I asked his parents, they said no sign of him, and I rung a couple of his friends and his cousin Leah so see if he wasn't at their place, citing that he'd gone out to see a friend and he had a doctors appointment at 11 he had to go to that he'd apparently forgotten.
ReplyDeleteI can't leave the house to check anywhere else. If the Ichthus symbol pisses him off, frankly I'm cautious to use it in case it fails and I end up not only injuring or killing myself, but also Vivi.
--Stella
Dammit.
ReplyDeleteSlenDERP cuts you off from trying to help/aid Chester, while his cronies start to mess with him.
Goddammit.
.....I just had a thought.
ReplyDeleteStella, you can fuck with people's perceptions, can't you?
....I wonder if Slender's perceptions are in that equation as well.
in answer to that:
ReplyDeletei don't know, either way he didn't like it
--Stella
REALLY didn't like it
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