Tuesday, March 8, 2011

BLUH

I just banged my head against the corner of a cupboard door. OW. It was sharp, too. I'm bleeding. Blegh. Seriously, on top of everything else going on in my life right now? 

Okay, shall I list? University has started up so I've had to shuffle my work schedule. I'm working in the mornings some days, the afternoons others, and Chester has the evening shift one day a week on top of all his coursework. Good thing he has an excellent work ethic, but it's still going to be stressful. We have to work in order to pay our bills and we need an edumacation as well. I might, however, be able to arrange to do my course by correspondence (waiting for them to get back to me on that) or find some other way to make managing this easier. If we have to, I'll drop out and restart my degree when all of this is over. 

I have a monster headache and I'm really tired. I have it good compared to some of you, I know, but at the moment I just want to curl up in a ball and cry. 

Stella's getting better. She seems to have gotten quite fond of the people she's been chatting with, here and over on tumblr, although she still has a lot of problems communicating with people from face to face and I think she's not the happiest of people even now, but she's improving. I'm glad for her.

My head hurts.

50 comments:

  1. My sympathies, dealing with S-man, Stella and student loans all at once must be a handful.. I'm not sure what's worse, having an eldritch abomination after you or convincing Studylink to actually work for once.

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  2. Yeah, it's a bit of a problem. Nothing big because my parents are playing for half of my tuition, but it's a weight on my mind.

    --Vivi

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  3. Take some advil?

    I'm sorry your head hurts. Get a cold compress or something.

    Also...erm...not to suddenly change the subject or anything but...

    You think I should delete my comment?

    I kind of am leaning towards letting it stand because the whole...wanting to tell the truth and stuff.

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  4. The odds of her knowing what we are referring to are right about nil and she rarely looks at the comments unless Tumblr isn't working (which it wasn't at work, but is so now.)

    Speaking of which, you can apparently expect some changes to Nova Tenebria this afternoon. Apparently the layout bores her, among other things.

    --Vivi

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  5. Pretty nice looking changes to her blog.

    And erm...you think I should...mention anything?

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  6. My advice is:

    Wait a while before you do anything drastic. She's still adjusting. Test the waters by all means though.

    --Chess

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  7. Well, I mean its not like I'm gonna be able to up and come to new zealand. Though I'd like to come and visit sometime.

    I have no money. =(

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  8. Don't let the fact you're an ocean apart demotivate you from doing anything. And who says you have to come to us, anyway? We have plenty of friends in the U.S. and once this is all over we have Vivi's bracelets to give out. Stel might tag along.

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  9. I'll keep that in mind. Thanks Vivi.

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  10. Everything going alright?
    Still safe?

    How's Stella?

    Slenderp keeps pressing his non-existant face up against the window and making heart signs with his tentacles.

    On a lark, I flipped the monitor around and played a RickRoll.

    He tilted his head, and seemed to be happy.

    ....I only just realized that its possibly because the song says 'never gonna give you up, never gonna let you down'.

    Oh Dear, what did I just do?

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  11. Stella's pretty good. She's been doing a lot of reading (she's currently halfway through the Fullmetal Alchemist manga) and a lot of TV-Watching (she likes Monty Python).

    Tell him you just lost the game, then he should leave you alone. Or try to trick him into saying "Candle Ja

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  12. No no no, you're doing it all wrong.

    You have to say all of Candlejack. Its just n00bs that say Candleja, then you're not through properly saying his na

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  13. ...xD

    Does this mean that I win?

    --Chess

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  14. Not quite.

    He's got a broken nose now, and is on the ground crying.

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  15. ...Can somebody please explain to me what a "meme" is?

    --S

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  16. A "meme" is a virally-transmitted cultural symbol or social idea. A meme (rhymes with "team") behaves like a flu or a cold virus, traveling from person to person quickly, but transmitting an idea instead of a lifeform. According to Cecil Adams of theStraightDope.com, the concept of memes "is either really deep, or really, really obvious".

    Historically, a meme is a discrete "package of culture" that would travel via word of mouth, usually as a mesmerizing story, a fable/parable, a joke, or an expression of speech. Today, memes travel much faster than simple speech. As Internet email forwards, instant messages, and Web page links, memes now travel instantly via the Internet.

    copy/pasta from http://netforbeginners.about.com/od/weirdwebculture/f/What-Is-an-Internet-Meme.htm

    A good example would be the Lolcats 'can I has cheezburgar' Its everywhere, and has been for a long time.

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  17. Oh! I've heard of "I can has cheezburger".

    Vivi was just explaining what a Rickroll was and I got a bit confused by the word "meme". I am not familiar with internet culture, due to my awfulness with computers. Literally, I open the internet, I get a pop-up ad and go "OH MY GOD WHAT DID I DO HOW DID THIS HAPPEN I AM NOT GOOD WITH COMPUTERS" and Vivi goes "Relax, hon, it's just an advert." I think in that kind of situation, the correct reaction is "Fail"?

    --Stella

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  18. OH STELLA

    YOU'RE LEARNING SO FAST

    MAKES ME SO PROUD :'D

    --Vivi

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  19. Not a fail at all, you're learning still. Very fast too.

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  20. Thank you. I feel a bit better about that now...

    --Stella

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  21. You should!

    Feel better I mean.

    Besides, you know how rare it is for someone to come back from what you've been through?
    you should feel good about that period.

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  22. Nice of you to say, but I did get a lot of help from you and Alora and Vivi and Chester so it's not like I did it all by myself.

    --Stella

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  23. All I did was write some rather dramtically fueled statements that honestly smelled of pure swiss cheese.

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  24. Yeah, but they worked, didn't they?

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  25. I...guess?

    I still say Vivi and Chester did far more than I ever could.

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  26. They were there when I collapsed and sat through all the seizures and screaming, yes, but you shouldn't undervalue your contribution, Jedi.

    --Stella

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  27. I suppose, glad I could help.

    And if you want to call me by my name, its Rob.

    Up to you though.

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  28. Rob is a nice name. I think I shall, if you don't mind.

    --Stella

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  29. If I minded, I wouldn't have mentioned it.

    How're you doing today?

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  30. I'm alright. I'm sitting at Vivi and Chester's work, drinking hot chocolate and reading. I tried coffee earlier, but I really didn't like it...you?

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  31. I'm alright, got a headache, as usual, but I've had a migraine for two years now, so that's not too different.

    As for what I'm up to...
    Surfing the internet, reading creepy stories, listening to Simon and Garfunkel.

    I got on the computer this morning and found a poem written in notepad.

    Roses are Red.
    Violets are blue.
    Slender is black,
    And he loves you.
    XOXOXO

    Man. Crush.
    Total man crush.

    Though I suppose its better than the alternative, he could be a bit more 'forceful' in a relationship.

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  32. Daddy, y u no leave my friends alone? D:

    You suffer from migraines? That must suck. It's really hard to concentrate even with just the occasional headache...

    ...Forceful? No, wait, don't tell me. I really don't want to know.

    --Stella

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  33. Sorry if I scared you off, I'm just trying to kid around.

    If I mock him, keep him firmly in my mind as nothing more than something to laugh about, parody, and such...it seems to keep him away.

    What can be more funny than him having a man crush on someone, and leaving small little love notes?

    Seems to have kept me safe, that or I'm just not worth buggering with.

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  34. I feel I should clarify, when I say Migraine in the singular, I mean that I've had a constant headache since Febuary of 2009.

    Don't particularly want pity, just have to remind myself occasionally that if I'm strong enough to not have gone nuts and blown my brains out by now from a constant migraine, an asshole in a business suit and obsessed with Japanese Hentai sure as hell isn't going to either.

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  35. It's easier to handle being stalked if you have a sense of humour about it. That's how things like the name SlenderHERP came about.

    --Chess

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  36. Nobody enjoys being pitied. I know I lashed out at Alora because I thought she was pitying me around the time Vivi was kidnapped. It's not fun.

    I can see why people would want to have a sense of humour about He That Is, though. It seems to have made it easier to handle for a lot of people.

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  37. I still prefer SlenDERP. It incorporates his name into it.

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  38. though I shouldn't feel too bad about my Head. I've got a medication that helps take the edge of it.

    Anti-Seizure though, so no beer drinking for me. It could kill me.
    =( And I've only tried it three times in my life. I was just acquiring the taste, too.

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  39. And it's fun to say! Slenderp. Slenderp. Slenderpslenderpslenderp. It's harder to fear a He That Is that has a mancrush on Rob and may possibly be my father, I guess?

    --Stella

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  40. Why did you call him that beforehand anyway?

    He that Is?

    And I'm kind of curious (feel free to ignore this if you don't want to think about it)
    About how things worked with him.
    How did he give orders? Did he actually talk or was it just mental commands?

    Did he show *any* emotion aside from anger?

    Ever offer an explanation as to why he does what he does?

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  41. I've never tried alcohol. Except once. Then we nearly got caught by proxies and we only got away because the fright sobered us up enough to be able to use our abilities, and even then the only thing we could manage was making them hallucinate to give us time to scarper.

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  42. I never actually had much to do with He That Is. He would give orders to his top Revenants who would pass the orders along to the Indoctrinated in charge for various areas who would then delegate the tasks to other proxies. It's very rare for him to communicate directly with an Indoctrinated. Even the deal I made wasn't with He That Is himself, it was all done with other Indoctrinated. I've only seen He That Is up close maybe four, five times.

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  43. But why 'He That Is'?

    Is that just what everyone else called him?

    And, I hate to ask this, but do you think there's any chance to help Kirsten, Aka Two Face?

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  44. I initially referred to him as "The Collector", in reference to the tale my mother used to tell me, but when I became an Indoctrinated all the people around me referred to him either as The Tall One (Revenants, usually) He That Is (Some Revenants, high-level proxies) or Master (Drones) so I started referring to him by those names as well so they would know who I was referring to.

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  45. Why do they serve him anyway?

    Simply out of fear?
    Wishing power for themselves?

    It makes no sense to me.

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  46. Some of them believe He is what is good and right, that He is a higher power. Some do so out of fear. Some make deals to protect loved ones. Some were given away by loved ones to protect themselves. Some of them go where the power is. Their reasons are many and varied. Some of them are just crazy, as well.

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  47. How can *Anyone* believe he is good and right?

    He kills people, takes children away to god knows were, does horrible things.

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  48. I did tell you some of them were crazy, didn't I?

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